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Oh wow, can you tell I have been bad? I haven't blogged since Feb. 27th! Well I will try to make this short and sweet. OMG, did someone say sweets? I need a snack!

Last Monday, February 28th, I started Weight Watchers Points Plus online program. At first it seemed great, but by Friday March 4th, I had stopped tracking, stopped caring and stopped losing! All I thought about was food. Pondering what I really wanted, where to get it and how much I could eat! I sound like a drug addict! BECAUSE I AM!

Hi my name is Robyn, and I am a carboholic. You know how people get to go to rehab for alcohol & drug abuse? When they get out people don't drink around them or talk about drugs around them... I wish I could go away for treatment! Obviously that can't happen, and people are not going to stop eating around me! Food consumes my thoughts. Even as I type I can't stop thinking about what I should make for dinner and what to have for dessert later! Gross!

Needless to say, I got a refund on WW and this week have been trying to get back to a low carb lifestyle, but I have blown it everyday! This is why I am still heavy, I can't stop eating crap! Now, I don't sit at home and stuff my face until I can't breathe, nor do I binge eat. But I do eat too big of portions of high fat/high carb foods (Mac N cheese, pizza, ice cream).

I have only gained a couple pounds back, and I am sure it's water weight, but I feel so frustrated and helpless! I am tired of being fat. Why can't it just disappear?

Reason #569 to not have kids:
Your genes are what make up your children. I would hate to have a child go through what I am feeling. I know the pain of being overweight as a child and as an adult. It is not as easy to JUST do something about it. It takes A LOT of hard work and dedication and makes you feel like a failure when you know you are not!